Feels like the worst person on Earth

[CommanderMadi]

Hey Off Topixers, its been a long time since I last posted on the forums, been tackling many issues in real life that made me terribly busy.

I am back now, and I have so much contradicting feelings that are making me feel like the worst person on Earth. Its been a very bad vaccation for me. I have been playing the role of "Vigilante" for a long time, protecting weak people in our chaotic streets, defending girls from sexual harassers and trying to serve the poor the best I can, and they are by millions here in Egypt.

But here comes the biggest reason of my misery nowadays >>

Although I feel no mercy whilst punching those outlaws in the face (Our police is allied with them btw) and although I am used to seeing blood and gore scenes, I still couldn't prevent my tears from dropping when I accidentally ran over a little cat yesterday with my car. I didn't even see it and I ran over it in a blink of an eye. I felt something strange so I looked in my side mirrors I saw it going back and forth and I immediately stopped. I went out of the car, rushed to it, carried it, it was so much in pain and it was bleeding from the mouth, I put her into the car and was on way to a vet friend to help it but it was too late, it was dead. At the moment, I couldn't stop my tears from dropping especially I felt her looking into my eyes, I kept saying I'm sorry hoping that it understands me, am I a bad person?

 

[WHO IS SERAFIN]

Hey Off Topixers, its been a long time since I last posted on the forums, been tackling many issues in real life that made me terribly busy.

I am back now, and I have so much contradicting feelings that are making me feel like the worst person on Earth. Its been a very bad vaccation for me. I have been playing the role of "Vigilante" for a long time, protecting weak people in our chaotic streets, defending girls from sexual harassers and trying to serve the poor the best I can, and they are by millions here in Egypt.

But here comes the biggest reason of my misery nowadays >>

Although I feel no mercy whilst punching those outlaws in the face (Our police is allied with them btw) and although I am used to seeing blood and gore scenes, I still couldn't prevent my tears from dropping when I accidentally ran over a little cat yesterday with my car. I didn't even see it and I ran over it in a blink of an eye. I felt something strange so I looked in my side mirrors I saw it going back and forth and I immediately stopped. I went out of the car, rushed to it, carried it, it was so much in pain and it was bleeding from the mouth, I put her into the car and was on way to a vet friend to help it but it was too late, it was dead. At the moment, I couldn't stop my tears from dropping especially I felt her looking into my eyes, I kept saying I'm sorry hoping that it understands me, am I a bad person?

As the old saying goes I think it was the straw that broke the camels back that happened to you. You needed a release of your emotions and that accident did it. And I mean a accident that in no way makes you a bad person.

 

[CommanderMadi]

Hey Off Topixers, its been a long time since I last posted on the forums, been tackling many issues in real life that made me terribly busy.

I am back now, and I have so much contradicting feelings that are making me feel like the worst person on Earth. Its been a very bad vaccation for me. I have been playing the role of "Vigilante" for a long time, protecting weak people in our chaotic streets, defending girls from sexual harassers and trying to serve the poor the best I can, and they are by millions here in Egypt.

But here comes the biggest reason of my misery nowadays >>

Although I feel no mercy whilst punching those outlaws in the face (Our police is allied with them btw) and although I am used to seeing blood and gore scenes, I still couldn't prevent my tears from dropping when I accidentally ran over a little cat yesterday with my car. I didn't even see it and I ran over it in a blink of an eye. I felt something strange so I looked in my side mirrors I saw it going back and forth and I immediately stopped. I went out of the car, rushed to it, carried it, it was so much in pain and it was bleeding from the mouth, I put her into the car and was on way to a vet friend to help it but it was too late, it was dead. At the moment, I couldn't stop my tears from dropping especially I felt her looking into my eyes, I kept saying I'm sorry hoping that it understands me, am I a bad person?

As the old saying goes I think it was the straw that broke the camels back that happened to you. You needed a release of your emotions and that accident did it. And I mean a accident that in no way makes you a bad person.

Yeah that's somehow true but I didn't realize I'd feel that guilty. It feels like I killed it on purpose though I didn't..

 

[DrLeftover]

The kitten was an innocent who, by chance of fate, happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.

I know plenty of people who would not have even noticed they'd run over it, never mind stopping and seeing if they could help.

The fact that it did break your heart is a very good sign. You, my friend, are one of the Good People that give me hope that Mankind is not a lost cause after all.

Now, suck it up and go back to protecting those that cannot protect themselves.

And don't run over any more kittens.

 

[CommanderMadi]

The kitten was an innocent who, by chance of fate, happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.

I know plenty of people who would not have even noticed they'd run over it, never mind stopping and seeing if they could help.

The fact that it did break your heart is a very good sign. You, my friend, are one of the Good People that give me hope that Mankind is not a lost cause after all.

Now, suck it up and go back to protecting those that cannot protect themselves.

And don't run over any more kittens.

Haha, Alright I will keep going on then. Thanks mate.

 

[Nebulous]

I hit a raccoon recently and felt bad about it too, I can relate.

 

[CommanderMadi]

I hit a raccoon recently and felt bad about it too, I can relate.

I can't even get it out of my mind. Whenever I see one of my 4 cats wandering in the house, I feel so guilty.

 

[Nebulous]

I hit a raccoon recently and felt bad about it too, I can relate.

I can't even get it out of my mind. Whenever I see one of my 4 cats wandering in the house, I feel so guilty.

You'll get over it sooner or later, it's not like you did it on purpose, it was an accident.