It's My Life

[Fayble]

The last semester of college for me was the roughest time of my life. I lacked motivation, desire, and the will power to do good for myself. I knew what I should be doing and focusing on but for some reason I didn't care. I fucked up I guess you could say. Nah that's exactly what you should say. I felt lost. And I couldn't find my way out. Well, I eventually did, but it took a lot of fucked up things to happen to me first.



You see when you go into college you always have this mentality of... I'm going to get straight A's with ease. But it's a lot easier said then done. There are a lot of distractions in college. From smoking, to drinking, to clubs, to girls, to just being away from your parents for the first time. Man that's a shit load of distractions if you ask me. Distractions that got to me as much as I'd hate to admit it.



Ok now, here's where I fucked up. There's a special substance called, Weed, which takes your mind off everything important in life and causes you to stare at walls, eat, laugh, talk, and not give a shit about anything. It seems like fun right...? Well, it can be if you have a character trait called Time-management. Something I learned about the hard way. You see high school is a piece of shit compared to college. I used to smoke all the time and still managed to get straight A's. So knowing that, I thought college would be the same way, but it's not. No, it's a whole different ball game. You actually need to study, like a lot. So far I pulled my act together this semester and got A's on all my first tests, and hopefully I can stick with it. I'm probably at the library 5 days a week for like 4 hours a day. Can you say book worm...? haha Well I'm far from it. I just know what I want in life.



It took a lot of fucked up shit to get me determined like this. I lost my scholarship and had to work all Christmas break to make up the money. I disappointed my family, but worst of all I disappointed myself. I know I'm better then this... And I'm proving it to myself now. I spent most of my time looking up motivational videos trying to spark my own source of motivation. The one thing that got to me most is, well, I'm 18 and have had 3 jobs already... I was a busboy, camp counselor, and stock boy at a liquor store. Well, in all of these jobs I learned how I don't want my life to end up. And it's because of those jobs and my experiences in life that keep me going.

 

[Corleone]

That's great to hear man! Just from reading your post, I can tell that you've acknowledged you screwed up, but instead of accepting defeat, you held in there and stood up to the plate. I know it seems like a lot has gone wrong, but what's went wrong may have been the difference between going no where and somewhere in life. If you would of kept doing what you were doing and made A's without having to earn them, I doubt you'd ever be successful in life, but this experience appears to have impacted you in a positive manner. You messed up, became a man, and made-up for what you did wrong. Great example of successful trail and error experience. I hope the best for you and good luck to you and your college life in the future! Remember, keep your priorities straight in life. Is weed your first priority? Or is manning up and becoming successful in life your main priority? Towards the end, you're doing just that. Keep it that way.

 

[Fayble]

Wow, that response was epic. Thanks a lot man. I feel a ton better haha. And of course my main priority is to become successful in life <3 Remember my name, because it's going to be all over the world soon.

 

[Grailknight]

Aside from the weed, you have my life's story in a nutshell.

Except that I failed harder and am still in the 'working enough to earn my own tuition' part.

So your post is pretty much a confirmation to me that I can still make it in the world. Thanks I guess

Also, to not make this post completely about me; Good job mate!

 

[Fayble]

Glad I recognized the hard times you were facing haha. Hopefully you can get better like I have.

 

[Xerent]

I'm 16 and have had three jobs...

I don't see what you're bitching about.

I study hard and try and I still fail in High School getting C+'s or B-'s if I'm lucky. Why does my school have to be #1 in the state?

 

[Nebulous]

How can you have 3 jobs?

Obviously you dont work every day at each job.



I have two jobs (one is on-call), when my other jobs calls me in (like today) I have to work 16 hours. Its makes for a very long day but its nice to have an extra pay check.

 

[Princess]

Education is very important to be successful in life. Go after what you want and it will soon be within your grasp. Congrats.

 

[Bluezone777]

How can you have 3 jobs?

Obviously you dont work every day at each job.

He said he had three jobs not that he is working at all three jobs at the same time. He probably lost the other two and had to seek a new job to replace it.

 

[Fayble]

I'm 16 and have had three jobs...

I don't see what you're bitching about.

I study hard and try and I still fail in High School getting C+'s or B-'s if I'm lucky. Why does my school have to be #1 in the state?

I never said I was bitching about my jobs lmao, but what I did say is that they helped me realize the path I was heading to if I didn't get my act together. Which was nowhere. I see a lot of older people like 30-40 years-old working at the same jobs I was at, and they were barely making ends meat. It just made me focus harder in school that's all. If anything was blamed in the topic it was weed for making me lazy and not give a shit about my life, but I quit so that's no more. K. Bye.