@Bastty and @Nebulous, here's chapter 5. Please comment!
Chapter 5 : At 12 years old, Pregnancy and Abortion
Dear Diary, it's dear old me again. At 12 years old, working as an illegal stripper at a local nightclub/bar, I've met and fallen in love with all sorts of men. One named Gu Lang, a Hong Kong mafia boss. He's killed his fiancé, Miao Qian Qian's whole family, but has spared her because he's fallen in love with her. Why the bloodshed? Because they were gang rivals. But I digress, at work, I've soon personally become obsessed and fixated by this mafia boss, enticing and enthralling, but oh-so-dangerous and sexy man. One day, out of the blue, I've told him : "I love you and wanna marry you", he's laughed at me and said : "Sorry girl, but I already have a fiancé named Qian Qian and I love her very much." Devastated, not knowing what do to anymore, I've thought to poison his food and/or drinks with a "desire elixir". What does it do? It does make the desired or wanted person by the other party mistake them by their beloved and makes them want and desire them in return. So hence why, hopelessly, I've started to observe his eating and drinking habits and times. I've observed that at 7am, he's having breakfast, at noon, lunch, and at 7pm sharp, his dinner. Being an illegal stripper, I've been having my pocket full of money I could easily purchase that drug from the black market. One night, at midnight, I've sought out the "desire" poison. A middle-aged man serving as the counter clerk has greeted me upon my arrival at the black market : "What would you like, miss? Some love elixir perhaps? One so young...", "Yes exactly, the love elixir please". "500$ then". "Done". Then I've gone back to the nightclub, ready to slip it into his dinner. Tonight is the night. Drunk and drugged, he's led me to his place, thinking I've been Miao Qian Qian, his fiancé and beloved one. muttering her name under his breath, and has initiated the love-making process. The next few weeks, I've been feeling light-headed and dizzy and forgetful at work. So I've taken a pregnancy test from a local drug store. Positive, has said the test. So glad that I've been pregnant with Gu Lang's baby, I couldn't be happier. But I've had to think about the practicality of the circumstances. "12 years old and pregnant already? That would ruin my career at the nightclub", or so I've thought. I've had to terminate my pregnancy while I could since the father doesn't even he's the father of my unwanted baby. So alone, I've had gone to an abortion clinic, there a lady in her 30ties has showed up, face full of concern for me : "Young Lady, what can I do for you?" I've answered her : "I'm pregnant, but can't have the baby, I wish to abort". "Poor you, such a young one...very well then". I won't describe in detail how she's done the abortion, so till next time, dear diary.