Self Destruction

[Nebulous]

Have you ever went through a self-destructive phase? Are you going through it currently?



Info: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Self-destructive_behaviour

 

[James]

I did this to one of my older forums while listening to music from Silent Hill 2

 

[Nebulous]

This has nothing to do with forums or the internet.

 

[James]

No. That has been my only display of self-destructive behavior.

 

[Nebulous]

Anyway,



My whole teenage years were self destructive. Had an abusive alcoholic father and a neglectful mother. Mom left dad when I was 9 and we went on welfare.. I turned to drugs as I was unhappy with life and they were a way to escape all the pain I suppose. Drugs led to other self destructive things such as stealing and being promiscuous. When I was about to become a father it hit me that I needed to stop my self destruction if I wanted to be a good parent and give my child the childhood I never had.

When I compare myself as a teenager to my present self in my mid-twenties, its like comparing two completely different people..

 

[Kasynlie]

No. Never done drugs. Never attempted suicide.

 

[Nebulous]

I suppose I could look back on a few instances recently where I was slightly self destructive.



Such as purposely not being responsible with money then suffering the consequences afterwords.



Or not getting enough sleep or drinking too much the night before.. Resulting non-productive work days and having to deal with people not being satisfied with my work performance. <--Easily preventable



Maybe not eating as well as I should even though I know I should eat better.



But those are small potatoes compared to the past.

 

[Evil Eye]

Haven't done drugs, haven't cut myself, might've committed suicide

 

[Jazzy]

Anyway,



My whole teenage years were self destructive. Had an abusive alcoholic father and a neglectful mother. Mom left dad when I was 9 and we went on welfare.. I turned to drugs as I was unhappy with life and they were a way to escape all the pain I suppose. Drugs led to other self destructive things such as stealing and being promiscuous. When I was about to become a father it hit me that I needed to stop my self destruction if I wanted to be a good parent and give my child the childhood I never had.

When I compare myself as a teenager to my present self in my mid-twenties, its like comparing two completely different people..

I truly admire you Nebulous for being able to turn your life around. When I read your posts about your daughter it's very obvious that she loves and admires you too.

 

[Cranos]

Self-destructive behaviour may be used as a coping mechanism, when things get 'too much'. For example, faced with a pressing scholastic assessment, someone may choose to sabotage their work rather than cope with the stress. This would make submission of (or passing) the assessment impossible, but remove the worry associated with it.

I still do this, I postpone the assignment until it's impossible to reach the deadline in time or I start learning when it's already too late. I need extreme stress to overcome that, like the threat of having to redo my year.



Other than that I drink a lot and I occasionally do drugs, but only when I'm going out and I don't really consider it self destructive. It's just having a good time.

 

[Vivian]

I can relate to your teenage years Nebulous.

 

[Urban]

Never had suicide come across my mind, did get high off substances thinking it was going to make things better. = when it's all another fail tail. an a devils game.