I cant live on

[Awesomeslayerg]

I have made so many mistakes in my life, my life is falling apart. My grades are going down (It was always down). I barely passed Geometry the first term with a C and failing physics and art. Then today reality hit me again, had to see her again with lots of pain and toughts i dont know what to do with. I tought she was their to hang out turns out its not. Its her 4th period class. Sometimes i like to believe im a hero of some sort or want to be a hero when i grow up but i cant. No one encourages me or talks to me about stuff. The only way i fall asleep is that pretending that someone loves me.
Now i googled Bipolar disorder turns out i think i might have it. I do have a good day one day the next day i have a bad day. Sometimes i have a really good day and get depressed later. I cant live with this anymore i feel like killing myself, my pearents keep telling me to try harder and stuff. They are thinking of taking my ipod and computer away and it feels like if they do that i will kill myself cause this is the only thing that makes me happy and worry less about reality. I really dont think i have a future. My toughts are disorganized so am i in reality. I dont know who the fuck i am. I dont know what to do. Please help me.

Sorry for my grammar.

 

[Jazzy]

You need to seek professional help as soon as possible. I'm not sure how old you are but you need to contact someone who can help you. If you can't talk to your parents about this, talk to the school guidance counselor or the school nurse.

 

[DrLeftover]

I agree with Miss Jazzy.

You need to seek out a counselor, priest, teacher, coach, SOMEBODY as soon as possible and tell them exactly what you wrote above. Even let them read it off the screen.

Everybody has made mistakes in their life, everybody has felt like they don't belong anywhere and have nowhere to go.

Your life is just beginning, and, one way to look at it, as bad as it seems now, it can only get better.

 

[WHO IS SERAFIN]

Talk to your parents and ask them to get you help. They love you and you would be surprised how much they would want to help if you explain the pain you are in. If you cant talk to your parents take the above advice because there are people out there who care. Dont give up on life!!!!