It sucks!

[LilMissPokey]

It hurts a lot when you want something, or rather need someone so bad but silly lil things keep happening. Your best friend gets to be with every single person on the planet except with you! And that when you need your best friend the most. My best friend's name is Star. Well, not really, but that's what I like to call. Star wakes up real early cos Star has tonnes of things to take care of. Bank things to studies to playing God of War with friends and to hanging out with mates. And yeah, Star HAS to do all this cos otherwise Star's social life will suffer. At the end of the day, Star is back, all tired and sleepy. Just awake enough to take care of things like having dinner, laying out clothes for the next day. We get to talk a bit, but only bout things like how was the day. And all that in a hurry. Cos Star has to sleep and get up early next day. All of this goes on and on. And being a good best friend I keep waiting for Star to be available, without sleep weighing down his eyes. It has been like a week. I'm still here. I'm crying as I type this. I need Star. I just put Star to sleep. In all my heart feeling heavy I message Star not to wake me up for the good morning call. I will sleep late. Usually I do get up. But right now all I can think is : Why should I sacrifice my sleep.. When Star can't other little things when I need Star the most.. been going on for days. I feel so detached. I would give up my sleep and everything for such a perfect best friend. But right now.. I'm not sure.

Can you relate?

 

[Jazzy]

I'd like to start by saying hello and welcome to Off Topix.



The only person in charge of you and your emotions is you. I cannot comment on how or why Star is acting the way he is because I'm only hearing one side of the story. The story that you put in front of me is one of a very lonely person who relies on Star way too much. It also sounds to me like you are in love with Star and somehow he's more to you than a best friend. Sometimes people just need their own space and can feel smothered when people constantly need them. Maybe he's just taking a time out right now. Why do you need Star so much? Do you not have other friends that you can talk to or hang out with? I feel so badly for you so I'm going to give you a

 

[LilMissPokey]

Aww,

I know I am in charge.And yes Star and I are more than just best friends, but most of all we are best friends very much in love. I have other friends but there's this something about Star that makes me a whole lot comfortable and being myself comes easy. And these days I am just missing Star way too much.

And I am okay with getting a sleepy person, but right now I need Star. I dunno

It is my vacations and we planned a lotts stuff together and that just aint happening!

 

[LilMissPokey]

Aaah no, he isn't taking a time out that I'm sure

but it is frustrating still how there are only so many hours in a day.

 

[Jazzy]

Go out without him and enjoy yourself. Maybe once he sees that you are doing things alone or with your friends, he'll want to join you. Have you tried talking with him about the way you feel? Sometimes people don't realize how the other person is feeling until you confront them with it. Don't keep it all inside because I see how sad it's making you feel.

 

[LilMissPokey]

Hehe, I wish it were this easy. Lotsa complications there Jazzy!

Still, point of my post... should I feel bad about messaging him not to wake me up?

 

[Jazzy]

Still, point of my post... should I feel bad about messaging him not to wake me up?

If you did it just to get back at him then I would say yes. If you did it because you truly don't want him to wake you up, then I say no. Which one was it?

 

[LilMissPokey]

Ummm.. cos I wanted to provoke him. Lol. He said F9. I sed Fine.

 

[Jazzy]

Ah, the truth comes out. You admit to provoking him and now you are feeling sorry for yourself. You are going to learn that in any relationship not to speak while you are angry and if you do, then be prepared for the consequences. Think before you speak because once you do, you can't take it back. I still give you a

but don't do that again.

 

[LilMissPokey]

I knoww

I don't want to do it again. But I miss him bad and when it goes on for days, ahhh...

 

[Jazzy]

He probably misses you too but won't admit it. He's teaching you a lesson by not responding and saying F9

You two need to kiss and make up

 

[LilMissPokey]

Here you go

 

[Jazzy]

Here you go

Aww, thank you!

 

[LilMissPokey]

Good night