It is, but when you don't open up to anyone in your life and suddenly drop everything onto a therapist, you feel a bit torn. I hate exposing things about myself (...no, minds out of the gutter, please!), and I don't like having to explain what pushes me into thoughts of suicide on a regular basis. He needs to know, that's his job, but I feel horrible after opening up about the issues in my past that make me feel the way I do. Going into why my brother hated me, the different people that bullied me for different reasons, all that sort of stuff. I hate going back to that.