This year has been awful for depression. In January my husband quite literally died on me in our living room and i had to bring him back, then two weeks later we went on a cruise with my inlaws and got covid. I had long covid for about 3 months of symptoms. During this time i was trying to stabilize my husbands bp and changed his diet because i was constantly worried he would drop dead again. Then after i recovered from covid my bp was all over the place and started having heart issues so then they monitored me too. I fixed myself. Then in all that time my dad got a second cancer, lung. So thinking the worst with lung cancer as i took him back and forth to his appointments. ....so much i could go on but i won't. However I'm ending this year with a broken back from a car accident in November. So yeah... depression is certainly hovering around me. I try my best to occupy my mind with positive things and not to dwell or even think about everything going on, otherwise I'd literally go mad.