Evil Eye said:
*snigger* I didn't think of that!!! Lmfao now!
Probably wasn't a good idea in retrospect! Doh!
Have I done anything more interesting yet?
Well, the other day the second lady, Fee, told me her life story. It took most of the day and was very involved. I tried VERY hard not to yawn. Not even once!
Then she said she was going into the ICT suite to order her weekly shopping from Asda, and did I want to come to?
So I did and spent a pleasant hour having a wander through Amazon! Lol!
Other than that, No!
It bugs me that I used to be running around like a maniac and that there weren't enough hours in the day, and now I'm sitting and twiddling my thumbs all day, whilst the other year 5/6 teachers are still rushing around like blue-assed flies! What a waste of resources, not putting me where I'm needed!
I haven't been told officially yet, but unofficially I've heard that I'm staying in the Nurture Room. I've said i refuse to deal with kids who kick off, for a while anyway, and they're fine with that.
I'm obviously stuck there but, looking on the bright side, I will eventually get a whole lot more training and be part of the Emotional Support Team for the children, and therefore heading towards the Management Leadership Team, so it's all good experience. I'll be dealing with very emotive issues, which I'm very good at.
As an example, we're not supposed to hug the children. It's difficult because children NEED to be hugged and shown love and given attention and be listened to. And you just KNOW the children who aren't hugged at home. You're supposed to just give them a quick hug, in plain site of everyone, and then move away. But I think *f*ck that*! If a child needs a hug I will give them a hug and if they need to be hugged and hugged then thats what they get. And they can hold my hands and talk to me and I rub their arms or their shoulders or smooth their hair, just the same as i do to my own kids. I'm very tactile and they like that, they NEED human contact and they NEED to know that someone cares.
I also frequently report any abuse I see, which a lot of he other teachers don't. So obviously I've made a rod for my own back. Hoist by my own petard! Lol.
However, it is only 2 months to Christmas and by the time I come back, after my op. it will only be 6 weeks until Christmas and the new Nurture groups will start straight away after Christmas.
In March there is a part-time course starting which I am hoping to be able to get onto, which will benefit me teaching-wise. So hopefully it's only 6 weeks of boredom (assuming I come through the op. okay) followed by 8 weeks of Nurture and then either training (hopefully) plus part-time work or maybe looking for another job.
It's funny, life seems to be wanting me to change course lately and it seems to be forcing my hand! It's so weird!
I had thought my life was following an inevitable path, which ended in a not-good scenario.
This operation will change all of that and hopefully give me a vastly improved outlook on life.
Because of that I decided to try my hand at this course, which would improve my life further.
Then, because I was SO enjoying my job, I decided not to apply for the course.
However, now my job has changed and I now want to apply for the course to improve my situation.
It's great when karma or the cosmos take over your life (because you're screwing it up) and lead you by the hand along the path which you're supposed to take. It doesn't happen often but when it does it makes your whole life just fall into place and change direction very smoothly, in a way it wouldn't have done if the cosmos had just left you alone to screw things up.
Am I talking rubbish? Maybe, but it makes sense to me.
Someone upstairs is guiding my life along a totally new path and I'm very excited about it.
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