My chances of getting a girlfriend are nill.

[James]

No, not really.



And those are my inner thoughts.

 

[Evil Eye]

I'm letting myself down whenever I try to draw(God.. I still draw in a mediocre way..)

Practice makes perfect, right?

And I still think there is not a single girl at youth group who would like me.

[...]

Before the youth group, my life was okay, aside from a bunch of other things.

Leave the group then... unless you have some reason to stay.

I have begun to think replaying Silent Hill 2 will be my rebirth.

Go for it. Return to that earlier, more positive, state.

Chobits

Hideki is a pervert! Hideki is a pervert! Hideki is a pervert! Hehehe.

I don't know what is holding me together, to drag on further in this chaotic, depressing world.

The urge to live is. Quite a basic instinct that. Besides, it can only get better.

Everyone acts like they are filled with joy, in reality.. it's all a illusion.



Falsified happiness.

Ah, there's a hint of truth here. Not quite right, though.

If you're not aware of said illusion, it doesn't matter. Ignorance is bliss.

If you are, it's still not impossible. You just need something to live for. Which, in my case would be an enormous ego: I'm quite aware I am but a speck of cosmic dust floating in vast emptiness. This does not stop me from thinking myself far more important than... pretty much everything. Belief shapes reality (personal reality that is), as long as I believe in me, I am. My purpose in life is my continued existence.

Fascination is key, there is so much to see, know and do...

 

[James]

Well..



Well, apperantly I don't know why, but at youth group, I was just sitting at a empty table, drawing and listenung to music and for some reason, two girls walked up to the table and (tried) to talk to me, if course their attention soon shifted to the pastor..



I don't know how it happened, I mean sure, I was smiling because of a funny video..



Other than, I don't know. However said girls are 10 and 11 years old('The hell?)



And I danced randomly on stage, but it was cut short(because of announcements, I guess).



But it probably made me more known at the youth group, though.



I proceeded to build a fort out chairs and a table and that's all.



I guess I have a chance, due to my weirdness and quirks.



Now.. only if my dancing isn't interrupted next week...



But I tried talking to two of them after the service last night, but they were too busy talking to each other about clothes and such, so I basically thought Screw this. There's no opening for my input. Pretty all I could say was So, apperantly.. and that was it, because they were too busy talking about clothes.



At least I made somewhat of a effort, but I didn't want to interrupt or anything..



Now when I built the fort, I let one guy become a member of it and I socialized normally(What's your favorite anime? Why did two girls come up to me and try to talk to me?,What's your favorite video game?,etc.) and that's about it.(Pity, that one of his friends got a girl pregnant, which ended in the girl committing suicide..)



But, I guess that gave me a little bit of a boost..

 

[James]

Well now..



I'm trying to figure out ways to get girls attracted to me at youth group, without going up to them and starting a conversation..



Since my dance session probably make people think different and made me more well-known..



I thought of something like just getting a bottle of water from the vending machine and giving it to one of the girls, if the offer is rejected, just give it to a different girl and just walk away, don't say anything..



Or..



Ask one of them how my shirt looks and depending on the situation, mumble something like nice shoes and when she asks me to repeat what I said, just say Well, you're gonna have to follow me to find out.



Or

-Just sing Frank Sinatra's Blue Moon up on stage(karaoke?)

-Dance up on stage

-Play on the piano(of course, it's out of tune)

-Sing My Funny Valentine up on stage, when it's getting close to the 14th.



Just ideas, really..

 

[Cranos]

...or you could just say hi.





Outrageous idea, I know.

 

[James]

Just saying Hi or complementing a girl's eyes won't make her think about or make me memorable.



Being over-the-top is being myself, so that's a plus.



I want the girls to chase me.



Standing outside of the pack will make the girls remember me.



If they think I'm weird, then f*** them.



Because I'm happy being weird and myself.



I'm not going to change myself for any girl(except the shyness part.)

 

[Fatal Dawn]

You don't lose anything by talking to them.

Actually it makes things better that way because they know what you're intentions are and you know how they feel about you.



In my experience people make things overly-complicated when they act outside themselves. Trying to be memorable doesn't last for too long.

 

[Cranos]

Just saying Hi or complementing a girl's eyes won't make her think about or make me memorable.



Being over-the-top is being myself, so that's a plus.



I want the girls to chase me.



Standing outside of the pack will make the girls remember me.



If they think I'm weird, then f*** them.



Because I'm happy being weird and myself.



I'm not going to change myself for any girl(except the shyness part.)

If that was really you, you'd do those things spontaneous. You wouldn't be planning them out beforehand.



As Fatal Dawn said, overthinking it never works.

 

[James]

Well that's why I doing that stuff.



Because then the girls might come up to me and want to talk to me.



Giving a bottle of water would be considered a nice gesture.



Talking and making a good impression will just me memorable for one week..



Because then clothes and feminine stuff will just clog their minds.



(Okay, while my game and novel ideas aren't shot down, my ideas on this subject are..)



And really, you don't know much(no offense.)



Who knows? Maybe my(albiet interrupted) dance session make the girls think about me.



Because I'm unique and different.

 

[Cranos]

XD Sure, go for it.

 

[James]

Well screw the bottle of water idea..



The people at TeenHelp shot that down..

I have to disagree with complimenting a girl at all, let alone on her eyes. By starting a conversation that way, it creates a frame in which you are saying nice things to her in order to win her approval. That's not a good thing: successful frames are those in which she tries to win your approval.



While it may be appropriate to compliment her later in a conversation, you should still avoid the eyes. Hugely cliched. In fact, avoid anything physical, and focus on something she's done well or some aspect of her personality. Makes her feel like you're assessing her on more than just her looks.



Oh, and don't buy things for girls as an opener. Makes it look like you're trying to buy their affection, and while they might keep you around for being a pushover, they won't respect you.

Hmm.. What do you gotta say about that?

 

[Cranos]

Pretty much true, but I never said you needed to compliment a girl. I just said you should say hi and talk to the girls. That's the only way you're going to know whether there's actually a girl there worth pursuing. And from personal experience I'd say making a girl laugh is ten times more memorable than a whole planned out strategy.

 

[James]

I was thinking of just hiding in the fort(of course I'll build it up again..) and then coming out of there, singing Blue Moon by Frank Sinatra and grabbing a girl by the hand and dancing with her.



Sorta surprising her.



After making a decent impression, I'll just go back to being silent, still a bit mysterious guy.



And all the planning? The girls at youth group don't about all of my planning.



The surprise will make me not only more interesting, but slightly sauve/romantic.



And since I do that only once, the girls will come to me.

 

[Jazzy]

Don't be surprised if the girl you grab by the hand and start dancing with smacks you for doing this. You could also get reported for harassment or worse. It's one thing to ask a girl to dance and a whole different matter to grab hold of one.



I'll let you in on a secret: Girls don't bite...well at least not as hard as boys do!

 

[James]

Well last night was different..



No girls tried to talk to me, but neither did I try to talk to them.



Went slightly mental again, hid in the back and laid on the floor(with my coat covering my head),then transferred to my usual empty table and laid down(coat over my head),transferred to the closest table to the group and said stuff to myself(quietly, of course.).



Then just went back into the area where I built my fort before.



Tried introducing myself to a girl, and stupidly asked for her phone number, no success.

Only did that, because she was probably leaving and never got a chance to talk to her(because a couple of other girls were welcoming the newcomer)



But good news is, I can go through with on stage plan, because I'm going to be singing Frank Sinatra up on stage, with a spotlight and everything.



I'm thinking at the end I'll say Well if you need me or want to talk to me, I'll either be sitting at one of those tables or in the back where the projector is l, I'll be there tonight and every Wednesday night.



Was thinking of saying some of my quotes, but those would suddenly make the girls think I'm creepy.